Friday, May 9, 2008

Goals Update 9

Wow, time for a goals update already. This is why I should not be a week late posting them. >_>

Since I was a week late getting the last post up, and I changed around a lot of the goals to make them more specific, a lot of these updates will only include the last week or so, the time since I actually made the changes.

1. Get a job. Working on it. Bleh. I'm tired and frustrated and don't want to go into it any more than that.

2. Finish my Nano novel - write 10 pages or edit 20 pages. I wrote a little over four pages, but that's it. About right for a week though. I'll try for the same amount next time, though hopefully I'll be able to increase it soon.

3. Play the flute and piano twice a week. Played flute once this week. I really need to get music before the next update. Also, talked to my mom on my grandma's birthday, about the keyboard. She hasn't really looked for it yet, but said she would. She's busy with graduation and stuff so I'll give her another week before bugging her about it again.

4. Write every day. Doing well on this, aside from days I'm really busy (like last weekend). Sometimes it's utter crap, but I'm getting to the point where I at least open one of my stories and write something nearly every day.

5. Let other people read my writing. I swear I'll do this eventually. >_>

6. Exercise 5 days a week. Four times this week, which was good considering everything else going on. Should be back to five from here on.

7. Read 104 books. I'm through 79 I think. Will finish this one fairly soon.

8. Take some trips. Need to book the hotel for Otakon. Got behind due to Cath and because of some credit card issues. Hopefully will get that straightened out over the weekend.

9. Learn Japanese. Three podcasts this week. I'm getting through more since I set a measurable goal for this. Hopefully I'll keep it up.

10. Physical therapy for my hand. Getting there. Need to either find my stress ball or get a new one asap.

11. Time management. Backslid, a lot. That's probably in large part because of Cath; I really just didn't care. Spent far too much time doing nothing. Not even reading or whatever, just wandering about on the internet or grumbling that I didn't know what to do. Definitely want to get back on track with this as quickly as possible.

12.
Start buying less stuff, and finish what I have lying around the house. Danielle gave me a B&N gift card for fixing up her laptop, so I used that. Other than that the only thing I bought was the second issue of The Long Road Home. Still making my way through what I have, though it's taking forever.

13. Learn Photoshop. Nothing with this, been too busy.

14.
Organize my stuff and get rid of unnecessary clutter. First up was the books. I put a bunch of books on BookMooch and organized all of those into one box. I have another box for the library. Have a couple more boxes to go through and then I can organize the rest.

15. Get through borrowed stuff. I'm halfway through Buffy, finished one book, and am partway through two others. I should still be able to get through all I'd wanted to in the next two weeks.

Okay, that's good enough. I'm off, as I'm heading into the city soon for the hockey game and need to get the cooler packed. GO PENS!!!!

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Nothing really

Just letting everyone know, the last entry was only a rant. It wasn't directed at anyone who reads this blog, or I wouldn't have posted it in the first place. I was pretty upset with some of the people I know in real life, and felt the need to get that off my chest.

Figured I'd clear that up as I know at least a couple of people were concerned that I was bitching about them.

Also, happy 81st birthday to my grandmother! ^_^

Monday, May 5, 2008

R.I.P. Cath

Cath passed away on Friday morning. Even though she'd been dealing with the cancer and chemo for about six months now, I wasn't ready for it. Up until a month or two ago they were fairly optimistic that the chemo would work. Even when they realized the cancer had spread, they estimated she had another year or two left. It just seemed so sudden. I was told she went in her sleep, painlessly, though, for which I'm grateful.

The weekend was rough. And it's brought home the sad fact of how few friends I really have around. Don't get me wrong, I have a few good friends I'd do anything for (they know who they are), but the majority of the people I talk to don't fall into that category. Sadly, most are more the fair-weather friend type. They're around constantly when we're just joking and having a good time, but the minute something bad happens they mysteriously vanish. Or they just don't acknowledge that anything has happened and act the way they always do.

Is it really so selfish to want friends who are considerate of me or ask how I'm holding up? Or who will put their own fun on hold for five fucking minutes to let me talk about it? Am I just expecting too much from people? I'd like to think that's not the case. I mean, a close friend of the family died. I don't think I'm being unreasonable to expect my friends to be here for me.

Oh well. If that's the way I feel, maybe I should make it a point to try and make some new friends, and ease back from the ones who have shown time and again that they really don't care much. If I don't do that at least, I really have no right to complain.

Friday, April 25, 2008

Goals Update 8

Since it's been four months, I figured I'd spend a bit of time redoing this list. There are goals that should either be added, changed, or cut out completely.



First off, the ones I'm cutting off the list.

1.
Do a book review for Jade's blog. Jade isn't even around much because she's so busy, and hasn't done a video in months. If she ever does get the site off the ground and starts keeping some sort of regular update schedule, I'll be more than happy to do a few reviews. But at the moment I don't see the point in spending the time recording and/or editing.

2. Nano 2008. I'm taking this one off until at least September. Even if I do spend time planning this year, I won't be doing it before then. There's no need to update every two weeks just to say that nothing has happened.

3. Update this blog, etc. I wanted to update this at least once a week. I've done at least that (with the exception of my job hunting hiatus).
I've also been writing in my journal regularly. It's become enough of a habit that I don't really think it needs to be on the list anymore. As far as I'm concerned, this one can be considered completed. ^_^

4. Continue my education. This one is coming off, not because I don't plan to do it, but because I can't right now until I get situated financially. I've already done all of the research, all that's left is applying and actually going. As I start working and get the time and extra money, I will be applying to various schools. But it's another goal that doesn't need to be on here, just so that I can say every two weeks that nothing has happened because I'm broke.



The goals that are getting changed around a bit:

1. Finish my degree/get a job. This one is just going to be "get a job" from now on. I have a couple of classes left for my degree but I don't know when I can take them, only because I don't know when they're offered. No point in keeping this goal if they're not even available until next spring. As soon as I can take them I will, and then I'll finish my degree. Until then, a job is my priority.

2. Exercise 3 days a week. This one's getting bumped up to 5 for a while. If I continue to easily meet this goal for the next month or two, I'll cut it off the list as well. The point was to make regular exercise a habit for me. Once it's habit the reminder isn't really necessary, unless I decide to change the goal to fitting in longer workouts, or something like that.



Completely new goals:

1. Organize my stuff and get rid of unnecessary clutter. I need to go through all of my clothes and get rid of stuff that doesn't fit anymore or that I just won't wear. I also need to get rid of books; I have boxes of my mom's stuff and half of them I don't even want. Or already have my own copy of. Same goes for movies, games, random boxes of stuff, etc. I need to get myself organized. Once I get rid of what I don't need I'm going to rearrange what I have left.

That's the overall goal, but it'll change from update to update. I want to break it into manageable chunks. So...first I'll get the books done. I'll get together the books I don't want, and either put them on BookMooch or donate them to the library. I'll also sell what I can of my old textbooks and take the rest to the paper recycling place. Once I'm done with that I'll organize the books I have left. Pack some of the ones I don't read as often and store them, and rearrange my shelves.

I'd like to have that done by the next update, but since I'm posting this entry late, I'll give myself two updates if necessary (until May 23rd).

2. This one ties into the first, kind of. And to the goal I've had of finishing stuff, though it's a bit more specific. I want to get through the books, games, and DVDs that I've borrowed from friends. At the moment I have multiple shelves of borrowed stuff. A couple dozen books, about a dozen seasons of shows thanks to Chris, some movies, a handful of games. I'd like to return some of these things and free up that space.

This one is going to change from update to update too; I'm going to set specific things I want to get through. It might seem stupid, but having a tangible goal actually does help me. I'm aiming for May 23rd with this one too. I want to finish Buffy season 2, and all of the movies I've borrowed from people (there are only three). Also, I'll finish at least three of the borrowed books I have and really get into one of the games. Doesn't matter which.

Wow, those got rather complicated, but they're the only really specific goals I have and I needed to take some time outlining them for myself. Hopefully they work out.



And last, updates on the goals that are being carried over from the old list. I'm making some of them more specific so it's easier to measure my progress, but the overall goals aren't changing at all.

1. Finish my Nano novel. Getting there, slowly but surely. I've still got a long way to go, but I'm working on it regularly. Going to start trying to write at least 10 pages between updates, or edit 20 pages. That number will hopefully go up, but I want to start realistically.

2. Play the flute and piano. I've still been playing the flute. Aiming for twice a week for half an hour. Mom still hasn't gotten to me on the keyboard. I'll see her a few times over the next couple of weeks, between her birthday, my grandmother's birthday, and Mother's Day, so I'll bug her then.

3. Write every day. Nearly there on this one. Word wars would help probably, but even without having anyone to war with regularly, I've been doing well.

4. Let other people read my writing. Parts of my Nano are nearly ready for this I think. Not sure who to send it to though. I know I'm not going to post it here or on the forums or anything.

5. Read 104 books. I'm about 3/4 through this, I think. So I'll probably be able to cross this one off in the next few updates.

6. Take some trips. Should have the hotel booked for Otakon soon. Now I just need a way to pay for it. Still hoping to find a job soon so I can do that and still get out to visit Chris at some point.

7. Learn Japanese. I've been working on this but not getting as far as I'd like. For now I'm going to do one podcast per day (they're short so if I skip a day I should easily be able to make it up), and also practice the writing every day. That's probably about 20 minutes a day of work, which should be easy.

8. Physical therapy for my hand. I lost my stress ball, which is a problem. I've still been doing the exercises that don't use it though.

9. Time management. Slowly improving. It's taking longer than I'd like, and I have more off days than I'd like, but I'm making progress at least. This has been a problem for me for years, so it's going to be rough to get myself out of my old habits.

10.
Start buying less stuff, and finish what I have lying around the house. I bought two books and got another through BookMooch. However, I finished a couple of games, and quite a few books and shows, so I'm still doing well on this one.

11.
Learn Photoshop. Haven't done anything with this; I haven't had the time or the patience. I'm going to get through at least two tutorials by the next update.

Whew, this was long. No wonder it took me forever to get written. But hopefully I'll make even more progress on these now that I've reevaluated and reorganized what I want to do.


On another note, happy 21st birthday to my brother! Hope you had a great one, and damn your school for scheduling final exams the next day! ^_^

Friday, April 11, 2008

Goals Update 7

1. Finish my degree/get a job. I'm doing better with my lighter load of classes at least. I've also applied at a number of places, and I have a list of places to get through by next week. Hopefully something there pans out, and soon.

2. Continue my education. I'm still going to apply to schools for admission next spring, I think. I don't see any reason why I couldn't transfer and start taking classes regardless of whether I've finished an associates degree or not. At the very least I'll apply to the school where my mother works, as I wouldn't even have to pay an application fee.

3. Finish my Nano novel. Been working on both of them a bit lately. I'm hoping to get back into word wars to get even more work done. (Chris, I'm looking at you!)

4. Nano 2008. Still not worried about this, though the more I work on my older novels the more I feel like doing a sequel to one of them.

5. Play the flute and piano. Emailed my mom about the keyboard but haven't had an answer. I only got to it a couple of days ago so I'm sure she'll get back to me soon. Played my flute a bit more. I really need to get new music.

6. Write every day. I'm still doing fairly well with writing, though I think I'm going to try and make a habit of doing it at a certain time. I think I'll stick with it more that way, just like I've stuck with the workouts as long as I do them just before lunch. I just need to figure out a time that works.

7. Update this blog, etc. Obviously I haven't updated this, though I think I'm still close to my once a week goal regardless. Started the daily pages again too. I want to keep up with those if I can and get back to my journal.

8. Let other people read my writing. If I keep the pace I've had, I should have parts of both of my novels fixed up enough to let other people read. Possibly in the next month, or even sooner.

9. Exercise 3 days a week. Still easily doing 3-4 days. Going to aim for 4-5 days from now on. Once I get used to that I'll start adding some extra time to each workout. I'm also going to have to come up with new types of workouts so I don't get bored. Thankfully the weather is getting better so I'll be able to get into hiking and biking again, and then swimming once summer starts.

10. Read 104 books. This one is no issue. Hell, at the rate I'm going I'll finish double that by the end of the year.

11. Take some trips. Right now I'm only worrying about Otakon. Once I get a job and save for that, I'll try and fit in a few other trips. Still hoping to get to Philly sometime over the summer, but we'll see. I wouldn't mind getting to see a few other friends as well, but I'm not sure that any of them live close enough for that to be feasible.

12. Learn Japanese. I've been slacking on this the last couple of weeks. I need to get back to it while it's still fairly fresh in my mind, so I'll get back into the podcasts over the weekend.

13. Physical therapy for my hand. I can force my finger to bend completely, which is more than I've been able to do since I broke it. Getting better bending it on its own as well. I've been working on writing normally (with my finger actually bent instead of the funny way I learned to write right after I got the cast off) along with the regular therapy, which has seemed to help.

14. Time management. Still improving here, now that I'm not so busy. I would like to get a lot better with this though. To be honest, I think I'm doing better because I have to work around when I can take the car out to look for jobs, and not because I'm actually getting better at organizing myself. >_>

15. Start buying less stuff, and finish what I have lying around the house. I've been doing well with this. I've finished up quite a lot of half finished books and series that I've had sitting around for months. I've actually been spending free time doing these things instead of aimlessly surfing the Internet, and it's made a big difference.

16. Do a book review for Jade's blog. Okay, so I lied about having one done for this time. I'm going to try and get two or three out of the way this weekend if I'm not busy. Then I won't have to worry about it again for about awhile.

17. Learn Photoshop. I fiddled with this for a few hours the other night. I didn't make anything very good, but I managed to figure out some of the effects I could use, and how to do some basic functions. I found a site with a lot of tutorials that should help as well.

I actually have another goal or two I was going to add, but I don't think I will at this point. This damn list keeps getting longer and longer, and I'm not crossing anything off. At some point, I'm going to overhaul the list and take some goals off. Some of the things I've made habit enough that I don't really need this list to remind me, like updating this or working out. Others I can actually accomplish, like getting a job, getting in school applications, and doing those book reviews. Once I get rid of aat least some of what's on here now, I may consider adding new goals.

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Hiatus

For personal reasons, I'm going to be taking a bit of a break from the internet. I have a number of issues that I need to take care of, and I need time to myself so that I can handle them. I know that's rather vague, but I'm not going into specifics on here.

You can all still reach me at my Yahoo email address, if you want or need anything. I might be on MSN on occasion as well, though I doubt I'll be chatting. I honestly won't be in front of the computer much. But if you leave me a message there I'll eventually get it.

I'm not sure if I'm going to continue to update this blog, which is one reason I'm making this entry (the other being that this is the easiest way to reach everyone). I'll probably do the goals updates when they roll around, but aside from that I'm not sure if/when I'll post anything else. It'll depend on my mood and if I have anything to say, I suppose.

Hopefully I'll get everything worked out in the next month or so, and then I'll be around regularly again. <3

Friday, March 28, 2008

Goals Update 6

1. Finish my degree/get a job. Well, I've withdrawn from two of my classes. I'm keeping the other two for now, though I will probably end up withdrawing from a third. We'll see. The focus now is on finding a job. Going to devote at least 3-4 hours a day to this during the week, and whatever I can do on weekends considering a lot of the places I'd apply to aren't open.

2. Continue my education. Might cut this one out entirely. I still plan to do it, but it's obviously not going to happen in 2008. Though I don't need my associates degree to transfer and start taking classes. Or even just apply to schools for the Spring 2009 semester. Hmm. I'll have to think about it.

3. Finish my Nano novel. I have been working on my first Nano novel again. I even did some word wars the other night. The girl I was warring with wants to start doing that a few times a week, so that'll keep me going.

4. Nano 2008. It's only March. >_>

5. Play the flute and piano. Ooops. Forgot to email my mom about the keyboard. Should have talked to her on Easter now that I think of it. But, I have to email her anyway about some books of hers I've finished, so I'll make sure and add that in. Played my flute a couple of times.

6. Write every day. I've been doing alright, but still not up to every day. Probably at least every 2-3 days right now. The word wars that I mentioned earlier will help, and Chris also mentioned wanting to war. Even if I only do a war or two, that'll be a big help getting me writing more regularly.

7. Update this blog, etc. Been doing well with the blog, though I feel all I do lately is bitch and moan. Haven't written in the others though. I will get back into the daily pages for my next update though.

8. Let other people read my writing. Nothing this time.

9. Exercise three days a week. Four times last week, five this week. It's finally a habit for the most part. Get up, do some things, work out before lunch. I want to keep that up if possible, and add some weights in.

10. Read 104 books. About halfway on this one, so I should have no troubles completing it.

11. Take some trips. Ireland is out. Can't really take a graduation trip if I don't graduate. Danielle and I might hit a convention in two weeks, though I'm not sure if that's considered a "trip." Otakon is still happening as of now. I'd like to fit a couple of others in as well if I can, though I'm not sure what. A trip to Philly perhaps, or maybe the beach for a long weekend if I can get a couple of friends together.

12. Learn Japanese. Working through some podcasts. This is something I'll probably devote more time to since I'm not quite as busy at the moment.

13. Physical therapy for my hand. One of these days I'll be able to move my damn finger normally. Still plugging away.

14. Time management. Now that I don't have insane amounts of things I need to get done, it's going slightly better. I'd like to get used to managing my schedule now, when I don't have as much to fit in it. That's probably a big part of why I was having so many troubles before.

15. Start buying less stuff, and finish what I have lying around the house. I have a bit more free time now. Going to try and finish whatever I can after I've done my job hunting and schoolwork for the day. Just because I don't have as much to do, I don't want to fall into a habit of lying about not doing anything.

16. Do a book review for Jade's vlog. Still haven't done this. I picked out a few books and started to do one for GRRM, but couldn't get it right. Dealing with my school stuff, I didn't have time to screw with it again. She hasn't even talked about doing another vlog yet, so I don't think it matters. Jade, if you're actually going to keep going, let me know and I'll have a book review for next week. If not this goal can be taken off the list entirely.

17. Learn to work Photoshop. I've had it for ages and never even used it. Just reinstalled it, and I want to learn the basics at least. I've found some tutorials online and I'll start going through them this week.

I'm hoping to make real progress on some of these over the next few weeks, while I have the time. Hopefully I'll get a job relatively soon, and then I'll have to reevaluate this list and probably take some of these off. I'll worry about that when I get to it. ^_^